Road Trips tell you alot about a person

Going with Ryan to get his car stuff done in Ohio this weekend was one of the best ideas I had in along time. With a wonderfully educational trip at the Rock & Roll Hall of Fame under my belt I can now breathe easy, They say take a trip with someone and you will see how real your feelings are or see the person under stress aka at their worst. If this is the case I have decided once and for all ; Ryan makes my heart beat different my world go round at a place unimaginable by someone who has never felt love.

When I am with him its like the reality of the rest of the world melts away.To be able to see someones smile and feel as though all is right in the world. I NEVER knew what it meant to really feel love, to love and care for someone and get that exact force back like some kind of theory by Einstein. To lie in bed at night and know that tomorrow night you will love that person even more.

This brings me to Sunday nights, as amazing as the weekends are I cherish every forehead kiss, I love you , even your protein shakes and canned chicken, Each Sunday night it gets a little harder to say goodbye I don't know if that because we are falling deeper in love creating that lasting bond between 2 people Is it me becoming dependant on him ? All I know is that now Ive started to cry when he leaves to go home on Sunday night. Am I so overcome because i have never felt a love like this and don't want to with anyone else ? Is it my mind foreshadowing something else a point in our lives where there wont be Sunday night good byes and I love yous , There will only be Monday Good Mornings, Ryan is the only person I could see myself creating a home with , I can only hope I will be lucky enough to spend the rest of my life with such an amazing loving caring soul

While driving to the haunted Forest this song came on and brought me to tears very poignant

Hush my baby, Don't you cry.
I'll dry your eyes. Fulfill your heart's desire.
Let's go in. Try again.
Careful this time. Broken promises linger in our mind.
I'll give in completely. Hearts break so easy.
I know. Believe me.
Oh, I've tried.But my arms can hold you.
My kiss console you.I'll come and love you tonight.
And I...I love, I love, I love
Love hurts sometimes
But this feels right.
You...You love, you love, you love
Though you've been burned
You still return.
Come and share my house, my home, and all I own.
I'd love to give to you.Aren't you tired of going along this lonely road?
It takes it's toll on you.
Give me your emotion, your heart's devotion.
Give anything you like.
And I'll give understanding. Life's so demanding.
I'm all you need to get by.
And I...I love, I love, I love
Love hurts sometimes
But this feels right.And You...You love, you love, you love
Though you've been burned
You still return.
I love, I love, I love
Love hurts sometimes
But this feels right.
And You...You love you love you love
Though you've been burned
You still return.Still return
Still return to love
Keep coming back to love


I love you with all of my heart Ryan :)