Stress Drama and Anxiety

I will keep this brief seeing as how I am running on less then 5 hours of sleep

well as if work stress hasn't been enough this week . . .


Sophie got in a huge fight with my mom yesterday

I get a call from her BF's mom ( he is at school in Indiana)

So I wake my dad up he gets her takes her to the night clinic for kids

still don't know anything at this point

Come to find out my mom kicked her forearm and bitched it up bad

hairline fracture and her hand was all purple and shit reminded me of zombie skin

I got to play nurse and do everything (shower, feed, dress) because of the cast

And whats my reward ????

A day where I will have to fake a smile and pretend nothing is wrong

The worst part is the memories this brings up of my own abuse and MY lack of action against it

But I cant save her . . . She will get fed up and do what I did one day

No One Wants to be alone at Christmas Time . . . .

"Here comes the cold ,Break out the winter clothes and find a love to call your own "

Mayer said this back in 2001 and I now get it , I have finally found a love to call my own

Never did I think i would find someone who I really felt like was my missing piece I finally figured out what that something was that was missing

For once in my life the Holidays were a happy time for me

Meeting Ryan's 2 sides of the family was interesting to say the least

I am now well versed in the art of not reacting when adults speak of awkward things (i.e. sex, bong hits, getting fucked up at HFS)

It was nice to be around a real , functioning family for once

Made me feel strangely holidaish :)

Bringing Ryan as my date to Clear Channels Holiday Party ( I know I know I am as amazed as you are we could bring dates at all) Was a GREAT call , he was by far the most handsome man there and was a perfect companion, and the Gaylord hotel was spectacular !

Going to the Haley Farm Bed and Breakfast in Deep Creek MD was a glorious time despite some of the bumps in the road ( uncommunicative Amish sleigh operators, blowing chunks Christmas morning, Ryan's lack of vacation packing cough cough one shirt cough) it was a Christmas I will never forget :)

After 6th months of dating , I have decided Ryan is the one I waited for, i am reminded of something someone told me once, Women are like apples on a tree the rotten ones are close to the bottom, Either fall off or are very easy to get , But the best apples the most Delicious apples are at the top of the tree , and only the most patient and perfect person can climb that tree.

Ryan got the best apple of the bunch :) I have found the love of my life , my soul mate , my partner in crime , my heart , my soul , my missing piece

Our next endeavor will be a cruise trying to convince Ryan to do a combo Birthday and Year anniversary cruise